Dear Diary,

“因误解而在一起，因了解而分开。“

今天起，别再在意那么多，生活就好过些。

什么样的命，都是自己选的;
什么样的生活，都是自己过的;
所以不要再去羡慕人家，
不是你的，就永远不是你的。

我想活得开心一点。。。
可能我明天就离开这世界？

没人爱你，那就自己爱自己多一些，幸福多一些，笑容多一些，眼泪就会少一些。

喝了自己从来不喜欢的咖啡。

Dear Diary,
The dream I dream alone is just a dream;
The dream we both dream together only will be reality.
Reality is always better than dream...
I hope, I will never wake up from the dream.
So that I would not need to face the reality that is out of my expectation, I could live my life as a normal girl as the others...
People around are asking me how could I live a way like this, how could I bear with all these, how could I accept it and make this decision...
I think, maybe because Im Previously & CURRENTLY in love.
Afraiding the situation will getting worse, and one day, I will not able to bear with all these anymore...
At that time, I'm sure that I'll accept my wrong decision, end it, and start my life all over again.

Dear Diary,

... the thinking is keep offending my mind and the feelings is getting strong after the bath.
Thinking of what have I done the whole day during the bath is one of my habits.

The things that is so hard to be verify, so hard for you to admit...
The things is like a stupid standing beside you, watching and hearing all the process...
The process is like a knife that scratching it's heart.

What is it should be when it is being with you, standing beside you, laughing beside you and ...
Just that one words, it suddenly become so worthless for you...
It knew you are not intend to do it, you just do it without thinking..that is why the answer was so true and mean since it is come naturally.

The cases are so related and real as the time you were in shock and rejecting not to being tag in any post on social network with anything together with it.
It treat it as fun, even you really allow it to tag anything things related with you, it still wont do it as it knew this was not the time.
But the way of your response and direct reject was truely reflected and yoy make it feels shock and dissapointed.

In this whole period, it is an ashame for you, worhtless, and meaningless little things!

It can't acting to be nothing anymore...why should it be?

It is me.