Dear Diary,

That's a bitter heart add some sweetness...
Finally,
the 14 weeks internship in ABMB has come to an end. ��

Bitter was I have to leave all my kind colleagues and friends, start over a new life.

Sweet was I finally graduating soon and able to work as a permanent and starting to earn money for myself & my family.

Life still have to move on,isnt it?

Feeling sad to say ByeBye, then everyone will move on to their own path and the past all would be ours precious memories ☺

I hate to have holidays actually...So I'm lucky that I only have 2 days more holiday left..

Because whenever I have free time, I will think about our past...and the future we planned perfectly...

After I woke up, it was just a dream.

Then the hurt feelings come after...
How was the hurt feeling,
How was the irresponsible fact.
How I'm being ditched.

Is it really meaningful to continue keep in touch? but the wound is leaving there unhealed.

So, that's the reason why I like to being a work slave now :)
I work even I feel sick.
Cause the sick never make me feel as pain as the heart bleed!

Money, is the only things I can trust.

Dear Diary,

Doesn't mean to argue with him...

But he always like this, without asking my willingness and didn't gv any effort on trying stg also, make me so angry on him!!

At the end..I just keep quiet, quarrel also pointless...maybe I offended his pride, make him feel ashamed.

Suddenly feel guilty on it ��

Sigh..what I did..

Dear Diary,

I am a fool who always looks like a fool too...?

So curious on stg, wanna get a clear statement on it, so I finally take my gut to open my mouth and ask.

Maybe he is just too happy to sharing his stuff, I am happy that he sharing it with me too..

But at the end, I think he didn't even bother I say I gt something to ask and if I didn't ask it, maybe I will keep bother abt it until unable to sleep..Then he just directly ignore everything!!O.M.G.

Is it everything have changed? Only I'm the one left behind?? Totally ignore about me...previously it wasnt happen in this way before!!?

OK,shut up Ann, go to hell by urself. Screw me!

Dear Diary,

I played hard in the badminton game this morning
2 hours nonstop.. that make me feel so satisfied and happier...
Looking forward for the holiday on next weekend ☺
The BFF trip have been planned and wished for so long, finally it almost came true now.

Love my best friends...I feel a bit sorry to them cause I'm like not giving much effort in this trip, I don't even have mood to go for it before...
But I think, I can't live like this...
He chooses to leave our life forever,if I continue staying in this world..
At the end, I only have myself, I'm alone.

So,Im forced to be tough. I hope he will be tough and brave enough to face the meeting in Kuching on tomorrow too. BTW, I don't have the right to tell him all these now.

Yesterday I watch a TV programme, the female say she already have a one years old child now,but she is just in 21's. That's mean she already pregnant since 19's...
When her mom know she get pregnant,her mom scheduled the operation to take away her baby and forced her to the hospital. Half an hour before the operation, her bf arrived and hold her hand, he bring her to escape from the operation together. Then, both of them leave their family and get married... However,now their family already able to accept them, so they are living together happily now.

Story end :)

Dear Diary,

He change his head picture in wechat...

I think both of us finally can move on d :)

I am watching the movie that both of us watch tgt "31 jump street" at DG food court now. I tell myself not to give emotion overwhelmed... ☺

I admit, I loved him.

So what, this is the end I deserved.

Dear Diary,

Have been a long time I didn't play badminton...

I started loving this game because of him.
The memories keep flashing in my mind...

the words he say to me,the skills he teached me,the time he play with me....

But those memories are killing me.

It hurts but everyday life still go on as I wished.

I hope he not hiding all his feeling and face this sad feeling alone...I hope his family and friends could help him get through this..

He will met someone better than me or just like me as future.

Like he said, I always could be replaceable, so he should live happier than me.

Good Night :) Hope tomato can sleep well after this tired bad game.

过了三天不联络…
就证明他已经不再爱你了…

再等下去，他也是敷衍你而已。

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以前做过那么多的付出…
原来他她从来都没看到…
读书…
上课…
生病…
节日…
挫折…
失败…
失业…
搬家…
毕业…

可能他就是一个 mamaboy
所以不会有自己主见
软弱
明知道是不对
但不争取

为什么每晚都要睡不着
为什么面试也受影响
生活都被打乱…

每分钟每秒
都在等那个交代

与其说对不起…想办法补救会更好。家人是应该这样的，我们也时常面对矛盾，但我们会努力一起讨论，寻找方法解决…如果你要那样活着，以后请别再害了别的女生，她们如果像我这样，被你家人糟蹋，你却眼睁睁看着，不保护她，那她们真的很可怜…有一个怎样的家庭不是接口，你如果不是像他们那样，你也不会放弃。大家如果都是成熟的人，都会有自己的思想，不是别人说一你就一的。说”也许我们真的没有未来”是不负责任的话，也带着放弃的心。长痛不如短痛，这些都是人生经历…只是个过程。

谢谢

心碎的声音

今天，我当了一整天的笨蛋。

我对不起我妈妈 我爸爸…

他们那么爱着我 也爱着你

结果 原来我苦苦经营了两年半的爱情那么不堪一击。

你的母亲大人 亲戚们 都把我当笑话看

被人利用到像个蠢蛋

他们都知道 你也知道发生了什么事

却都把我蒙在鼓里…

在我车上的时候 你母亲看我是什么了

‘小贱人 都一脚把你踢开了还那么不要脸 死都要来载我们’

哈哈 我真可笑！

那么卑微 那么愚蠢。

你那么的狠心 

知道了一切 那么迟才告诉我

我在你眼里 真的是那么贱！！！

原来爱情可以那么伤。

你根本没爱过我

只是在利用我

如果爱我 你不会放弃

当你说要拿回全部衣的时候

你已经决定 永远放弃我，

当你说你母亲只有一个的时候

你已经不想努力了。

别再骗我。

我也是很脆弱。

你母亲可以离开家

我也是会受重伤而死去的

你知道吗？

我也是一个人

我也是有妈妈生的

我也是别人的孩子

你母亲不管你开不开心

忽视你感受

不当我是人

忽视我感受

可是在我家人眼里

我是他们珍贵的人。

所以我不会再被骗了…

我的心好痛

你的心如果有痛

那我一定比你痛一百倍

因为我的家人没像那样对你

无论如何 我都会尽量保护你

可是你呢？

看着我被刀割

却无动于衷

我今天

真的

看清你了……

笨玉恩

她终于梦醒了…

我之前 真的很爱很爱过…

以为你也和我一样

原来

我错了。

最

后

我

还

是

被

抛弃

。