Dear Diary,

时间过得好快
记得去年的这个节日
我们一起开开心心地买粉 搓汤圆给大家吃

结果真是春风依旧在，但人面不知何处去。

这个月的 party 不间断哟…
剩下的就是 寂寞了！

冬至快乐

Dear Diary,

他们说…
每个人都用了不同时间来恢复
我说已经三个月过去了…
为什么还是没好呢？

他们说，我终会把他给戒掉的。

所以我还在努力着 ：)

工作好忙，
我感觉好压力…
好像回到以前的日子。

我想找个简单 平凡的生活。

Dear Diary,

今天…
陪着同事去某商店包礼物的时候

突然看见一份包好了的圣诞礼物…
跟以前他送我的圣诞礼物很像
瞬间勾起了很多回忆…

它让我想起了 他亲手包的圣诞礼物

突然眼泪快崩溃

幸好一位同事跟我开起了玩笑
我就不再盯着那份礼物看

原来要忘掉一段感情 是很难的
也或许是我的问题 。

Dear Diary,

Today was the second class of Zumba,
I feeling much better than last week.

At least this time I could follow more step and less shy,

Happier. :D

I feel myself slowly falling in love with it.

It feel good to try new challenge and step out my comfort zone.

Dear Diary,

我不想说…
我不想想起以前的时光…
一想起以前的时光，
我就会有漫长又难入眠的夜晚。

最近工作都好忙碌，
有喜欢 也有不喜欢，
但看到银行，
就会撑过去。

加油，没有最努力，只有更努力!

ps: 好想换电话，这照片数值好烂。

Dear Diary,

最近老是被男同事欺负 =…=
现在是怎样？
以前都是我欺负人，
现在是报应来了吗？？
或者我长得一副衰样咯!

钱还了…
以后就谁也不欠谁了，
从此也一刀两断。
别教我恨
还记得刚开始的我不断追问他为什么
到最后得到的答案也不是伤了自己
所以现在学聪明了一点
当自己是弱智就好。

你教我要恨
那么到最后辛苦的是不是也是我啊？

我慢慢都想通了…
我也是自己笨嘛～
所以现在也是被人欺负了～
从容应对一切。

“回首恍然入梦。”
“回首我心依旧。”

玉恩，祝光棍节快乐! ：D

Dear Diary,

又梦见以前的事…
不懂为什么偶尔会梦见以前在一起的时光
醒来后，
才发觉都是过去的往事。

仿佛是昨天一样…

今天有男同事告诉我，应该要多话些。
他说男生就喜欢比较善于说话的女生…
所以对外人来说，我很安静？
所以不惹人喜欢吧？

其实我也不太介意…
那很好，很安静。
所以我就笑笑就好咯…

还是一个人好。

Dear Diary,

The first time,I fell so badly.
Almost tears out at every time when cleaning my wound...

No one will concern on me as much as my family, I love them.

My first run, and maybe is this will be my last run as well.

A pig isn't suitable to join any sport activities...

PS: Request Sayang T.T

Dear Diary,

为什么我每次心情平静的时候，
就会有朋友来关心之前的事…

我真的好累，为什么我一直要解释自己被抛弃，然后再次回忆那种痛…
自己的朋友就够了…
他的朋友面前，我也是要解释!

我要怎么说？？

说他是个懦弱的男人？
说他是坏男人？
欺骗我的感情？
承诺谎言一大堆？
我笨所以被骗？
还是我长相特样衰所以他妈家人都讨厌我？

如果我真的说得出…那已经不是我自己了…

是不是就因为一直不想伤害人，所以搞到自己一直受伤？！
我常帮人说好话， 到最后他有没有守护我，帮我说什么好话了？
说他在他家人眼里更本微不足道所以他家人完全不顾他感受？

我到最后才知道 才看到…
他没有。
他爱他家人多过我太多太多，所以选择让我去死，一点尊严都没有!

你可以看到他的狠吗？
这是我以前傻傻爱上的男人。
他真的是个很自私的人…

我告诉自己，我好失败。
所以以后都别再爱上一个男人了…
我不想再哭了…
我真的好累。

Dear Diary,

Listening to the radio in the early morning...and it say "失恋的人在第111天的时候，就会完全恢复。”

Today is the 42th day...
Not even reach the half of 111, omg.
Still gt a long journey to go x(

Anyway, today I get the first salary of permaneny job in my life! (Hooray)

Well, coincidentally, today is T.G.I.F. also!! XD

Happy day~

I rmbr he told me, after he get his first salary, he will buy me a necklace.

Now, this is bullshit, I know.

According my colleagues, they say I'm desperate in finding a bf...
In fact, I just told them I hope to find someone live in puchong so we can share cost to work tgt.
/_\ I'm so speechless.. after telling them about this,they start finding a boyfriend for me...

Dear Diary,

This is my first time attending a meeting in working life...

A bit nervous, few countries are having the meeting at the same time..
How can this happened?

Thanks to the amazed technology nowadays!
Of course my employer is one of the important contributor to this rapid technology change as well :D !!

I did nothing but just listen and sit at side.
At the end of meeting, I participate in voting of the topic (the live pool result was so damn cool)!

Today, is a little growth in Ann's life :)
She so wish to share this experience now H3H3 ~

PS: Terrible Haze

Dear Diary,

Have a night singk session with my beloved BFF.

The night with them are always warmer & happier~ :)

你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是你装的保护色

为什么失去了
还要被惩罚呢

赞赞，觉得这几句特有意思…

唱 炼金术 时还差点哽咽 …
但坚强的狮子还是忍忍了 ：)
所以伤心的人还是别听慢歌吧！嘻嘻

加油 恩恩 X)

Dear Diary,

This is another badminton day :)

I spoiled my middle finger, the first time.
I think most probably is due to I using another guy's racket instead of using mine.

He never stop appearing in my mind while I'm playing the badminton game...
Ours old time, happy memories when I'm with him...
The activities that we went for most before we start our relationship.
This is the place, he holds my hand and not willing to let it go...

It is so sad & hurt, but sweet at the same time.

I facing the hard feeling now,
I miss him.

Hoping the time could heal my wound soon...

God will help me, but I have save myself by my own.

Dear Diary,

怕只怕…爱着爱着他又放弃…

只怕自己又爱错。

ps: 我可爱的 giya

Dear Diary,

That's a bitter heart add some sweetness...
Finally,
the 14 weeks internship in ABMB has come to an end. ��

Bitter was I have to leave all my kind colleagues and friends, start over a new life.

Sweet was I finally graduating soon and able to work as a permanent and starting to earn money for myself & my family.

Life still have to move on,isnt it?

Feeling sad to say ByeBye, then everyone will move on to their own path and the past all would be ours precious memories ☺

I hate to have holidays actually...So I'm lucky that I only have 2 days more holiday left..

Because whenever I have free time, I will think about our past...and the future we planned perfectly...

After I woke up, it was just a dream.

Then the hurt feelings come after...
How was the hurt feeling,
How was the irresponsible fact.
How I'm being ditched.

Is it really meaningful to continue keep in touch? but the wound is leaving there unhealed.

So, that's the reason why I like to being a work slave now :)
I work even I feel sick.
Cause the sick never make me feel as pain as the heart bleed!

Money, is the only things I can trust.

Dear Diary,

Doesn't mean to argue with him...

But he always like this, without asking my willingness and didn't gv any effort on trying stg also, make me so angry on him!!

At the end..I just keep quiet, quarrel also pointless...maybe I offended his pride, make him feel ashamed.

Suddenly feel guilty on it ��

Sigh..what I did..

Dear Diary,

I am a fool who always looks like a fool too...?

So curious on stg, wanna get a clear statement on it, so I finally take my gut to open my mouth and ask.

Maybe he is just too happy to sharing his stuff, I am happy that he sharing it with me too..

But at the end, I think he didn't even bother I say I gt something to ask and if I didn't ask it, maybe I will keep bother abt it until unable to sleep..Then he just directly ignore everything!!O.M.G.

Is it everything have changed? Only I'm the one left behind?? Totally ignore about me...previously it wasnt happen in this way before!!?

OK,shut up Ann, go to hell by urself. Screw me!

Dear Diary,

I played hard in the badminton game this morning
2 hours nonstop.. that make me feel so satisfied and happier...
Looking forward for the holiday on next weekend ☺
The BFF trip have been planned and wished for so long, finally it almost came true now.

Love my best friends...I feel a bit sorry to them cause I'm like not giving much effort in this trip, I don't even have mood to go for it before...
But I think, I can't live like this...
He chooses to leave our life forever,if I continue staying in this world..
At the end, I only have myself, I'm alone.

So,Im forced to be tough. I hope he will be tough and brave enough to face the meeting in Kuching on tomorrow too. BTW, I don't have the right to tell him all these now.

Yesterday I watch a TV programme, the female say she already have a one years old child now,but she is just in 21's. That's mean she already pregnant since 19's...
When her mom know she get pregnant,her mom scheduled the operation to take away her baby and forced her to the hospital. Half an hour before the operation, her bf arrived and hold her hand, he bring her to escape from the operation together. Then, both of them leave their family and get married... However,now their family already able to accept them, so they are living together happily now.

Story end :)

Dear Diary,

He change his head picture in wechat...

I think both of us finally can move on d :)

I am watching the movie that both of us watch tgt "31 jump street" at DG food court now. I tell myself not to give emotion overwhelmed... ☺

I admit, I loved him.

So what, this is the end I deserved.

Dear Diary,

Have been a long time I didn't play badminton...

I started loving this game because of him.
The memories keep flashing in my mind...

the words he say to me,the skills he teached me,the time he play with me....

But those memories are killing me.

It hurts but everyday life still go on as I wished.

I hope he not hiding all his feeling and face this sad feeling alone...I hope his family and friends could help him get through this..

He will met someone better than me or just like me as future.

Like he said, I always could be replaceable, so he should live happier than me.

Good Night :) Hope tomato can sleep well after this tired bad game.

过了三天不联络…
就证明他已经不再爱你了…

再等下去，他也是敷衍你而已。

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以前做过那么多的付出…
原来他她从来都没看到…
读书…
上课…
生病…
节日…
挫折…
失败…
失业…
搬家…
毕业…

可能他就是一个 mamaboy
所以不会有自己主见
软弱
明知道是不对
但不争取

为什么每晚都要睡不着
为什么面试也受影响
生活都被打乱…

每分钟每秒
都在等那个交代

与其说对不起…想办法补救会更好。家人是应该这样的，我们也时常面对矛盾，但我们会努力一起讨论，寻找方法解决…如果你要那样活着，以后请别再害了别的女生，她们如果像我这样，被你家人糟蹋，你却眼睁睁看着，不保护她，那她们真的很可怜…有一个怎样的家庭不是接口，你如果不是像他们那样，你也不会放弃。大家如果都是成熟的人，都会有自己的思想，不是别人说一你就一的。说”也许我们真的没有未来”是不负责任的话，也带着放弃的心。长痛不如短痛，这些都是人生经历…只是个过程。

谢谢

心碎的声音

今天，我当了一整天的笨蛋。

我对不起我妈妈 我爸爸…

他们那么爱着我 也爱着你

结果 原来我苦苦经营了两年半的爱情那么不堪一击。

你的母亲大人 亲戚们 都把我当笑话看

被人利用到像个蠢蛋

他们都知道 你也知道发生了什么事

却都把我蒙在鼓里…

在我车上的时候 你母亲看我是什么了

‘小贱人 都一脚把你踢开了还那么不要脸 死都要来载我们’

哈哈 我真可笑！

那么卑微 那么愚蠢。

你那么的狠心 

知道了一切 那么迟才告诉我

我在你眼里 真的是那么贱！！！

原来爱情可以那么伤。

你根本没爱过我

只是在利用我

如果爱我 你不会放弃

当你说要拿回全部衣的时候

你已经决定 永远放弃我，

当你说你母亲只有一个的时候

你已经不想努力了。

别再骗我。

我也是很脆弱。

你母亲可以离开家

我也是会受重伤而死去的

你知道吗？

我也是一个人

我也是有妈妈生的

我也是别人的孩子

你母亲不管你开不开心

忽视你感受

不当我是人

忽视我感受

可是在我家人眼里

我是他们珍贵的人。

所以我不会再被骗了…

我的心好痛

你的心如果有痛

那我一定比你痛一百倍

因为我的家人没像那样对你

无论如何 我都会尽量保护你

可是你呢？

看着我被刀割

却无动于衷

我今天

真的

看清你了……

笨玉恩

她终于梦醒了…

我之前 真的很爱很爱过…

以为你也和我一样

原来

我错了。

最

后

我

还

是

被

抛弃

。

Dear Diary,

What should I do if I'm truly loving a people...
I should not mention about break up always...
I have to be strong
I should put trust in him
I should wait him
I should be more patient
I should be less emotional
I should make him feel less worry on me
...
So I should stop crying like a baby.
Can't control my tears so I have to control my mind..
Think +vely, so to make family and friends feel less worry on me.

ANNTOMATOTHEGREAT
Unforgettable birthday in this year.
Surprise never stop in this month.

Dear Diary,

Depressed and sad.

But I can tell no one about my feelings now...

Sometimes I hope to end everything,
You will not know how much I have tried to holding it.

I know, I'm in the losing stage.
So please stop telling me this.
The discrimination on us make me feel disgusting.
I don't have money, he don't have money.
His family not even liking me even they didn't even meet me.
I knew it.

Sometimes I'm supporting him, but his family will not know how much is my value and how much is his value mean to me...

I really felt depressed most of the time...
I cried and I live again,
like ntg happen to me.

I always make myself to looks like,
'An Optimistic Gurl'
......but I'm
Just A Human.
I do have feelings, please stop hurting me.

Can anybody else hear my screaming?

screw me.

今晚

我的眼

哭太多

伤太多

肿了

好痛

做不到 FYP.........

今天…
我终于发现，
原来见不见面已经不重要了。

因为我在你的心…
已经不重要了。

Dear Diary,

Don't ask me...

I know he didn't even think about me.

Cause he only has himself.

I found some reason to explain, that was great.

Promise that I won't speak crazy and act crazy like before..

Because when I feel less caring on it,

Then I let it go.

Future, it would be better.

If I have the luck to find someone who appreciate me.








I would leave.

I never have the day to come otherwise