Dear Diary,
为什么我每次心情平静的时候，
就会有朋友来关心之前的事…
我真的好累，为什么我一直要解释自己被抛弃，然后再次回忆那种痛…
自己的朋友就够了…
他的朋友面前，我也是要解释!
我要怎么说？？
说他是个懦弱的男人？
说他是坏男人？
欺骗我的感情？
承诺谎言一大堆？
我笨所以被骗？
还是我长相特样衰所以他妈家人都讨厌我？
如果我真的说得出…那已经不是我自己了…
是不是就因为一直不想伤害人，所以搞到自己一直受伤？！
我常帮人说好话， 到最后他有没有守护我，帮我说什么好话了？
说他在他家人眼里更本微不足道所以他家人完全不顾他感受？
我到最后才知道 才看到…
他没有。
他爱他家人多过我太多太多，所以选择让我去死，一点尊严都没有!
你可以看到他的狠吗？
这是我以前傻傻爱上的男人。
他真的是个很自私的人…
我告诉自己，我好失败。
所以以后都别再爱上一个男人了…
我不想再哭了…
我真的好累。
Dear Diary,
Listening to the radio in the early morning...and it say "失恋的人在第111天的时候，就会完全恢复。”
Today is the 42th day...
Not even reach the half of 111, omg.
Still gt a long journey to go x(
Anyway, today I get the first salary of permaneny job in my life! (Hooray)
Well, coincidentally, today is T.G.I.F. also!! XD
Happy day~
I rmbr he told me, after he get his first salary, he will buy me a necklace.
Now, this is bullshit, I know.
According my colleagues, they say I'm desperate in finding a bf...
In fact, I just told them I hope to find someone live in puchong so we can share cost to work tgt.
/_\ I'm so speechless.. after telling them about this,they start finding a boyfriend for me...
Dear Diary,
This is my first time attending a meeting in working life...
A bit nervous, few countries are having the meeting at the same time..
How can this happened?
Thanks to the amazed technology nowadays!
Of course my employer is one of the important contributor to this rapid technology change as well :D !!
I did nothing but just listen and sit at side.
At the end of meeting, I participate in voting of the topic (the live pool result was so damn cool)!
Today, is a little growth in Ann's life :)
She so wish to share this experience now H3H3 ~
PS: Terrible Haze
Dear Diary,
This is another badminton day :)
I spoiled my middle finger, the first time.
I think most probably is due to I using another guy's racket instead of using mine.
He never stop appearing in my mind while I'm playing the badminton game...
Ours old time, happy memories when I'm with him...
The activities that we went for most before we start our relationship.
This is the place, he holds my hand and not willing to let it go...
It is so sad & hurt, but sweet at the same time.
I facing the hard feeling now,
I miss him.
Hoping the time could heal my wound soon...
God will help me, but I have save myself by my own.
